Because I don't want to get too ahead of myself

I've been holding back on updating too much. I mean, it might turn out that my life in the next year isn't very exciting at all and I've started this blog in vain.
I'm realizing more and more everyday that my insights that may seem like little nuggets of wonderfulness are only such to me. I learn life lessons everyday - but sometimes I think those life lessons are only applicable to myself. For instance, today I was sitting on the couch reading some articles for such and such a class and I looked into the kitchen where Ben was doing something at the sink. I just smiled to myself because I realized that, though sometimes the days get really long, I really do love him. Sappy, yes? but oh so true.
Also, I have morsels of conversation that will forever stay with me, but they aren't recreate-able. Like the conversation I had with one of my supervisors the other day: we were discussing ways to relinquish unearned privilege (i.e. white privilege, heterosexual privilege, etc.). I didn't understand how this was even possible but he really made me go deeper that I had been willing to do. I really REALLY appreciated it and now I have a different way of approaching my everyday interactions.
But in actuality, the real reason I'm updating are not for these moments of awe, but because last weekend (a week ago yesterday) I received an email that my Fulbright proposal was recommended to the next level. That's pretty serious.
Again, I don't want to get ahead of myself (as the title states) but it's pretty exciting, and certainly documentable news. That means out of all the proposals from all over the United States that were proposed for Austria, mine was 1 of probably 35 or 40. That's pretty good in itself.
I should know (hopefully, fingers crossed) around the beginning of March whether I'll be going or not. Until then, I'm going to be pretty busy. Hopefully sometime next week, I'll be able to update you on the grad school front. I'm supposed to find out from Wash U the week of the 15th.
Until then!
kaytlin ({})

I'm BAAAAAAACK.....

and enjoying my final few days before the hectic-ness that is the last semester of undergraduate college! What!? I know...it seems like just yesterday I was hugging away at my teddybear wishing I could come home because I missed it so much. Now I'm kinda antsy to get back into the swing of things. My, how life changes in four short years.

I was in NC for a week. It's always nice to see everyone, but it can be draining, too. It's hard to explain to people that I only come for a week because a week is about as much as I can handle. It's not the most booming of towns, really I could go for two days and get everything that we usually do in a week done. Dad is doing well, though, which is good. and the whole family is functioning, however dysfunctionally.

But like I said, I was glad to get home and now I'm kinda ready to be back at school. Mostly because I'm have a few new things on the table like a new job and independent study, plus new classes and a class with Anna Banana :-D. It will also make time go by faster so I can find out about the Fulbright and admissions to Wash U. Those are the biggest things weighing now. As long as one of those two things comes through for me, I'll be a happy little duck.

I've worked on a couple of paintings today. I think at some point I want to go take pictures, though I'm not sure where or of what. Maybe I'll think on that tomorrow whilst I memorize my monologue.

Well, that's about it. My life isn't too exciting yet, and I bet it won't be for a little while at least, though I'll keep this updated.

loves,
me

Ahh, the Hoffman clan...

...is so welcoming and wonderful. These last few days have been super. So much laughter and Chicago and laughter and loveliness.

Tomorrow we are going to the Art Institute and the Bean so it should prove to be a good time. Lucy (their french bulldog) loves me. Anna's house is beautiful. Just overall this has been wonderful. I love this family. This may become my second home (if the Hoffman's allow, of course).

Anyway, going to go now. I head out for NC on Wednesday. hmmm...
loves
kayt

A new year..

...and a new blog for me.

I've decided/know that this year is going to be a year with a lot of changes. It's going to be a transition year because both Ben and I are graduating from undergrad in May. Ben will be off to dental school somewhere and my future still lies in the hands of the Fulbright committee and various other institutions to decide where (if anywhere) I will be next year.

It's going to prove to be an interesting last semester, too. I'm starting a couple of brand new jobs/independent studies, I'll be working on my senior thesis, and hopefully performing in the Vagina Monologues again *fingers crossed.*

If all goes well, by the end of this year, I'll be writing this blog from Austria. Although, if not, that's not all bad either.

Tomorrow is our annual New Year's bash at the apartment followed by some time with my bestie, Anna, and a week in NC with my dad. We start our last semester of undergrad in 18 days.

What a year this will prove to be, I hope you join me in my journey :)

Auf wiedersehen,
*kayt